Lost

my ooomf
I seem to have lost enthusiasm, for everything...
I had a good morning, in fact we had an hilarious time at our university session in teaching sex education, but then this afternoon I slowly lost my good mood, along with my get up and go. I made myself go climbing tonight in the hope I'd feel better, and I just felt a bit lost. I just couldn't sum up any enthusiasm for it, I came home early in part because I was just so cold. It's really cold here at the moment, the car had frost on it when I came out, and I just didn't have enough warm clothes on.
I've gone to bed early, and just feel so blurgh. I don't feel ill, just like something's missing, and I don't know what.

The honeymoon is over

It's official, the childrens' behavior is starting to get interesting. i will say no more here as I write under my real name so anyone could find this, but ye gods I'd rather not have a day like yesterday again!
I still have the headache this morning, actually this is becoming a bit of a theme, and it's always just in front of my eyes, so I think new glasses and contacts and a trip to the opticians is in order, though who knows when I'll get time to sort that out. I've been at the church Hall on each of the last 3 evenings sorting out CRB checks, and while it only takes half an hour, it just takes such a chunk out of my evening. I have no idea what I'm doing with my Year 10s on Tuesday as I want to wait and see what they actually know.....
Right best get ready for the biggest waste of time in my week- my day in university.

and breath

Things have calmed down a little since last time I posted. Teaching is actually going really well. I seem to be getting to know the kids, and so far no one has said a bad word about my teaching. Long may it continue, but being realistic I know that eventually I am going to have one those lessons from hell!
I seem to be getting my head round being DC, I have got the database working, and we might even have found a secretary. The 4 session was fine, though it was on Friday not Thursday, so a slight wasted journey there. My essay is I think done, at least it's at a standard where it can go in and I'll actually be able to get feedback that will help me.
Last night was the fancy dress party with all the climbing club, it was a really good night and very much needed. I'm not even feeling ill today, which is nice, though I know my brain cells aren't quite all firing. Anyway here's picture of me in my fairy costume, taken just before I dropped Lanas camera on the floor, and jammed the lens, and possibly killed it!


Todays projects have been finishing off my essay (done), looking in to getting a bigger hard drive for my laptop (seems achievable, and not too expensive, and buying things to make Christmas decorations. I've fallen in love with these stockings and this advent calender. All I need to do now is find time to make them!

In which I nearly cry with exhaustion

I'm absolutely dying to go to sleep, I have no idea why, it's 8.30, and while I was up at 7, and have been in school all day , and have been to Rainbows, and am stressed about how I'm ever going to get books out of the university Library while they keep closing it at 4pm due to the power cut making them realise that the emergency lighting doesn't work, and I'm in school every day until 4pm, and the essay is due next Friday, and I really need those books.... (are you getting the stress, behind that panckied stream of thought?)

However I need to wash my hair, it has been 3 days since it was last washed, and I can wait no longer, my scalp is itching, and the grease is appearing, yes I am a bit of a minger when it comes to hair washing, I refuse to do it every day, 2 days is the norm, and I'm fine with that thank you, if I'd not told you, you'd never know!

I also need to stop worrying, too much is going on, I'm starting teaching soon, I have coursework due in that I barely have my head round, and my District Commissioner role is starting to stress me out. So much paperwork, and no idea what I need to do with it all, and still no secretary to help out.
I still need to plan an In4mer session for Thursday, I really wish I'd said I couldn't do this, but now I have I'm not going to let them down, but it is turning in to the thing that's pushing me over the edge for this week.
Right shower time, as I can no longer type....

PS. I don't know what's happened to the header, the picture had disappeared so I tried re-uploading it, but that wasn't playing. So I fiddled around with what appear to be some changed settings in blogger, and I can only either have no words and just a picture, or the picture over the top of the words, which means you can't read the words... Help....anyone??

In to the West

All my lesson planning is done, and for the most part I'm pleased with my efforts, but we'll have to see what they're like in practice, for the most part it's the time scales that is terrifying me. Nine lessons is not enough to teach, two Year Seven Biology modules, but as the teacher was away on sick leave before half term, and the class didn't start a new topic when they should we're stuck with it!
Our TV's on the blink, the scart lead at the back is a bit knackered, and doesn't always play with our digi box, so I've been watching DVDs while planning. I couldn't decide what to watch, but in the end went with watching the extras discs from the final Lord of the Rings films. I loved these films, for 3 years it was a Christmas tradition for us to go and watch them. when it cam round to the last one, me and my Mum started crying about 30 minutes from the end, and by the final scene I was positively howling (if you were the people behind me, I apologise now).
Now you'd expect a film to make you cry, but not the extras discs, but these ones are the most beautiful ones you've ever seen. If you have the extended version, and have never watched the extra discs, then you should do, no seriously, right now!
Part of teh extras is a bit of a biography of a young New Zealand lad, who was a film maker, his films are shown as part of the extras, and they are beautiful. He died of Cancer just as the final film was being made, and was the inspiration for the song In to the West, which is sung by Annie Lennox, and even hearing it will start to make me cry!

Neglect

My poor neglected blog, life has got in the way of blogging, in fat I'm only writing this now as a distraction form trying to work out how I'm going to teach the topics I've been given for my Year 7 and 8s. I'm really really snowed under, I have two lots of planning to do, and I'm trying to work out how I have only 2 weeks left to do a major bit of coursework.
Speaking of coursework, I need to start it, I meant to start this weekend but the university is shut due to a major power failure, so I can't get out the books I need....
I also have an In4mers (peer education) session to plan, that I'm really wishing I'd said I couldn't do!

Right, back to work.

First post of November

How has that happened?
Honest it feels like only yesterday since I wrote the last post. Since then I've started my school experience, I teach my first lesson today (gulp), and do my first science practical demo tomorrow! For all my other classes we're working on dates when I can take over.
Guiding stuff has gone nuts, I left the house at 7.45am yesterday and I didn't get home untill 10pm, and yes guiding is to blame. Today I have a staff meeting after school, and then have to dash across town and do one of the stupid numeracy tests the government says all new teachers have to take!
And oh bugger is that the time... must go and throw on some clothes!